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October 25 Oh My God!!!Just now call up Ah May... actually just to "make appointment" with her for a lunch within this week, as we didnt meet up for quite some time... and guess what????
Oh My God!!!!!
"I've got pregnant for 4 months..."
Shocking news! Shocking news!
I called up Amanda and told her about this news... and wow... we are so shock and yet we share the joy of our friend.. I'm still a bit agitated, and I cant wait to go online in msn to tell my msn friend about all these... it's a bit weir that I am so happy about my friend's pregnancy, but I am so overjoy and would like to share with somebody..
But.. from the respond of my net friends.. they seems like.. cant imagine to have a kid... To have a kid is something to do with "getting old".. anyway, I feel like maybe people from city not really appreciate and anticipate life... or maybe I am just too stupid to share with people that do not share same value as me.. well well well... it's still a joyful news, and I wont spoilt it, and continue to call up friends... hahaha... call me CNN.. October 24 When I fall in love....It has been 1 year...
Have you ever love somebody and that you know he is just not for you?... It sounds so fool and stupid.. and yet I am one of them..
Everytime when he gets hurt from another women, he will come to me for comforts and encouragements. But... whenever he shares his feeling with me, my heart being torn apart and I really dont know what to do with it.. I love him and he knows it.... I feel deeply hurt.. and feel being used by a man that know that I will accompany him whenever he needs me..
I put up false smile and laughters, when he tried to do all sort of things to please those girls that he is trying to chase after... Last Saturday night, it was a happy night for me during the beginning, as we share laughters and jokes... and later he said he would like to sing a song for me.. so I listen...
"when I fall in love, it would be forever, or I never fall in love..."
I cant stop laughting and giggles, as he is trying to mimic the old singer singing style...
"Vivian, I am going to sing this song to her... to gain back her heart back to me..."
My heart sink... and....still I cant stop laughing, just to cover myself.. Coward me.. but.. still I cant stop my love and my thoughts about him... what should I do....
May 22 From Oh No.... to Oh YesssHave you ever have a hair cut that make you feel so so so depress and sad? I guess everyone had experienced that.. It was a week before my birthday. So, I had decided to pamper myself with a hair cut. However, "frindge" had not come into my mind, until I saw the hairstylish newly cut frindge. In seconds, without much consideration, I told the hairstylish to give me a frindge cut....... and...... OMG!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!! It is so so so so x10,000 SHORT !! I look so so so so x10,000 BOYLISH !!
"Oh No!! How am I going to work tomorrow?" "Oh No!! I will look so urgly for my birthday!" "Oh No!! I will look urgly for the next 2 months, before it grows longer!" "Oh No!! My face looks so rounded, bad!!" "Oh No!! Oh No!! Oh No!!" That are only some of the thoughts that jet into my mind at that moment, the OH NO List goes on.. Later, I proceed to my shopping with my friend - Amanda.. Her positive comments make me feel better, but doubts still sank inside.. Later and later, my mum and my sis gave me another positive booster again.. feel much more better, and instead of sank, doubts start to float a bit. "Oh!! What a lovely dress !!" As I saw a dress that I love so much, I pick it up and head toward the fitting room... "Ee, let me see how's the dress!" "Ok, sure.." Just before I walked out from the fitting room... .... "It acutally looks quite cute on my face... not as bad as what I thought... and short hair brings up the highlight colour........." LoL... Oh Yessss!!
May 16 Getting Matured or Aged?Lately I am really being disturbed by the "AGE-ING" issue... time is runnig short.. MAN.. thought u can act cool and ish about it.. but deep inside there is a voice.. "tik tok tik tok tik tok........" Looking back what I want from myself after 5 years working.. basically are financially independent / a promosing career / an apartment / a steady relationship / and debts free... and yet.... time jez slipped out of my hand without I realise that I am actually in the working environment for almost 5 years... MAN!! And yet NONE of my wishy-dreamy has been fulfilled. That will coz me to say aloud another ... MAN!! Anyway.. I think during this process has actually make me to be more realistic.. so come on.. why worry.. jez give urself another 5 yrs.. and u will be happier and more focus.. hohohoho... Even by the time I am another 5 years older then.. I will still be happie n go luckie. SO... LET"S BE BUGGIE N HAPPIE!!
People that I think I will see them again...Sometimes, and most of the time... we (human) will always think that a person is not worth for our care and concern, becoz .. we are going to see each other soon anyway. This morning, when I was rushing to airport to pick up my friend, my eyes jez have a lighting fast "touch and go" at the front page of the news paper.. as usual.. I didnt pay much attention to most of the news.. except 1 news.. about 2 person been murdered... I my heart was "aiii... not again..." then I went off. Not only when I reached home late night, after my mum told me, then I realised that was someone I knew... omg... I read, read and re-read the news... I feel sad for the family .. but at the same time I am thinking "only 2 weeks ago, I saw him hanging around with his friends.. and now.. I can never see this person any more.." This really make me to think again.. "recently did I take things for granted from someone else"... Emmm...
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Feeling of depress and sad start circulated. All kind of stupidz worriness came across...
you might laugh at me how silly I am.. But.. as females are like "Wave".. and I had changed my mind... and all the Oh No turn to....... Cuttie (what are you thinking? Oh Yesss?? haha!)
sigh..
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